And now for something a little more up-tempo...
*crawls out of champagne bottle*
Oh hai there internets ppl!
Now that regrets are out of the way it's time for *drumroll*
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You are Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic)
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- Current Location:My Bathrobe
- Current Mood:
high - Current Music:"I Have to Drive" - Amanda Palmer
ugh... I think I may still be a bit drunk. Buggar a lark for it all... wait, that's not right... Buggar it all for a lark! that's better. I think I shall take the day off, or at least work from home. I worked my ass off last week, I deserve it. Hmmm... not my best "out sick" email... "got too creative when making hot & sour soup from scratch saturday and really not feeling well today. will be on email/ras/phone, finishing up the last bits of the remote interop." but it'll do. Hmmm... I could really go for pancakes right about now...
PANCAKES!!!!!!!!!!
- Current Location:my bathrobe
- Current Mood:awake
- Current Music:Queen - "Love of My Life"
What does Christmas mean to a heathen like me? My friend, an atheist, consistently says "Happy Holidays," but I still say "Merry Christmas" although I'm not a Christian. I'm not an atheist or agnostic either*. Still, I have no belief in "the reason for the season." Even when I was Christian and tried to believe with all my heart, the scholar in me knew it was the wrong season anyways, a side effect of the Roman conquest and assimilation of the northern "barbarian" tribes. So then, why in my heart am I celebrating "Christmas"?
To me it's not much different from "Thanksgiving" (although in my heart it's the harvest festival), a time to spend with and to remember loved ones, our family and friends**. At Thanksgiving the theme is giving thanks, showing gratitude for the bounty in our lives, for the food, shelter and love that are the basic requirements for life. At Christmastime the theme is showing appreciation to our loved ones through gifts. Some gifts are material, some take the form of hospitality, others in kind words and displays of affection and camaraderie.
For me, that is "the reason for the season." I could call it by another name, but over the past couple centuries "Christmas" has gradually become secularized to the point that it feels appropriate. While the words of many would name the birth of Christ as the reason***, their actions name the same reasons as I do, appreciation for the loved ones we carry in our hearts across the threshold of the death and rebirth of our world, the religious angle secondary and symbolic. That said...
Merry Christmas to all! May your hearts be full of warm spirits and your mug full of loved ones!
And now, a joyful Christmas poem.
The snow piles on the window pane.
The weight on my heart is the same.
Cold and heavy, obscuring my view.
Alone and hopeless, I dream of you.
* I consider myself a lazy zen Buddhist. It describes my world view, but I don't actively follow the path of the Bodhisattva.
** Those who don't believe friends are family haven't been fortunate enough to have true friends.
*** Many other, older theologies have lore of virgin births near the winter solstice, likely inspired by the lengthening days heralding the rebirth of the earth.
- Current Location:my cozy lair
- Current Mood:
peaceful - Current Music:"Med Sud I Eyrum Vid Spilum Endalaust" by Sigur Ros
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- Current Location:my lair
- Current Mood:Awake, almost
Past few days my phone went crazy and started draining the battery at ridiculous speeds and acting generally fucked up. So today I backed it up, reset it, applied my back up, started to use it... it locked (part of security for my work) and when I entered my PIN to unlock it it said it was wrong. I reset the pin. Entered it. Wrong. Did you know Windows Mobile Phones self destruct? Yeah, it deleted all information and reset itself to factory defaults. No worries, I just made a backup, right? Well, backup was on the storage card which I should've pulled out... Yeah, all my texts, call history, photos, notes, video, sound recordings, gone.
Last week I got a promotion, and got so drunk celebrating that I had to call out sick on Friday. So I went sober after that. Yesterday I got so stressed (from above mentioned issues as well as lack of happy juice) that I blew a fucking gasket at work, embarrassed myself in email and had a heart arrhythmia.
The week before that I got dumped because I was too much the kind of guy she wants, so good that she found herself distracted from the very same goals and aspirations that I found so attractive to begin with.
I wonder what's going to blow up in my face next week...
FUCK!
- Current Location:work
- Current Mood:angsty
- Current Music:"Coma White" by Marilyn Manson

it started as a fun night, hanging out with a friend, having some beers. but i've been angsty all week, and one whiskey didn't seem like a bad idea. but it got lonely, so i sent another whiskey down to keep it company. when i didn't hear back, i sent a third to check on them. after that one also failed to report, i realized i couldn't trust whiskey, so i sent down a double neat well gin to whip them into shape. well, it did the trick...
when am i going to learn that getting blindingly, blackout drunk is not a good way to deal with being unhappy about things in my life. luckily i was in good company and managed to stay out of trouble. but its still terrifying to wake up in the morning with only vague flashes of how i got home, having to check to make sure everything got back alright (wallet, phone, bag, etc). ugh. stupid waste of money and braincells. although, at least i'm not as worried about the thing that drove me to selfdestruction...
on second thought, i guess it really does work. woo-hoo! whiskey, is there anything it can't fix?
- Current Mood:
cynical
